Tuesday, September 9, 2008

I miss you!

Two years ago today I lost my best friend to cancer! It seems like yesterday that my Dad was sitting next to me with his sweet face just starring at me. I would often catch him looking at me with such pride. I would always ask what he was looking at and he would reply with something along the lines of "I'm just so proud of you" or "I just love you so much!" I miss everything about him. I miss his smell, his rough hands, his hysterical laugh, and most of all our conversations. Oh what I would give just to hear his voice one more time. He was the godliest, kindest, most loving man I've ever known. My heart aches when I look at my sweet little boy and know that this side of heaven, he'll never know his Pop Pop. I know in my heart that if I had the power to bring him back, I wouldn't do it. Eternity with Jesus is just too magnificent to come back to this earth. So for now, I'll wait! I will be reunited with him one day and I assure you that Tom Sachs will be waiting to show me what I've been missing out on! I love you, Daddy!

13 comments:

Wendy said...

Tegan-
I am sitting here with sadness in my heart along with you!! I loved and admired your dad so much-he was a wonderful man!! To this day, I can still here him calling me Wendy Woo and giving me the biggest hugs...I know that is how Jesus greeted him!!! Find comfort today in knowing that he is with you.
Wendy Cain Walker

Callen Martin said...

Tegan this is so sweet and SO moving! I'm thinking about you today!

The White House said...

Dearest Tegan, he is a wonderful man... I am sure that the Lord is so enjoying his presence. He was so instrumental in my parents' walks with the Lord. Praying for you today.

Darby said...

Tegan, I've been thinking about you and I'm praying for you. I love to hear about your dad. It sounds as though he was an AMAZING father! I know he can't wait to embrace you again!!

Ashley said...

Praying for you tonight, friend. He was so special to so many people. His impact is far-reaching. And I love your honesty in that you would not call him back to earth. Not many can make such a statement.
Much love.

chbaker said...

Teg- I can't imagine the empty space you feel. Praise the Lord we can hold on to the hope of Eternity. It is such a blessing to know that there is so much more to this short life.

Amy said...

I love you girl, and will keep both you and your family in my prayers during this time!
Amy

Katie said...

Tegan,

Your daddy touched me in so many ways. I know that God is so proud to have him. Ole Tom is probably hugging every FCA member that is already up there with him. Please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you.

Katie

Phil said...

Beautiful, Tegan.
You are such sweet, precious sister. I am thankful for the time I knew your precious dad. I miss him too. You are such a blessing to our family. We are thinking of you and praying for you just a little more this time of year. What a reunion Heaven will be..."when we all get to heaven..what a day of rejoicing that will be"...I think it will last more than a day, don't you? Love you, girl. Lisa

matthew said...

Hi Tegan,
I too miss your dad, my Uncle Tom, I will never forget what influence he had on my life. It was the love of your family and their love for the Lord that led me to the Lord. I think about him alot, especially during worship, thinking about him in the throne room worshiping at the Lord's feet. I know too that one day I will see him again and can't wait! Thank you for sharing that sweet post. I sit here with tears streaming down my face missing him dearly but knowing that he is at peace!

I love you and miss you. Give that sweet, adorable boy a kiss from him cousin leigh leigh

Heather said...

Teg, I can hardly type this from the tears rolling down my face. I miss him too! I miss his laugh, his yankee accented "hey heather-bear"! I miss him gushing on and on about the children! How proud he would be of Tripp and Jud! I am blessed to have memories of him bragging on Jeremiah as a baby keeping his hands down as he ate. Once at Sol Azteca, while having his signature Dos Equies, he called all the mexican waiters over to watch me give Jeremiah a bite of prunes....he couldn't have been but about 8-9 months. He was so proud...i don't think the mexicans had a clue what he was saying, but they smiled and nodded politely. HA! What I also remember was how we'd talk about babies (as he had someone in his lap) and we'd always talk about you. You really embodied Ps 127 to Pop Pop...chidren are a gift from God...a reward from Him. He'd say, "Little Tegan (still love how he always referred to you as little Tegan) I tell you, that little tegan is just gonna be the best mom! She's wanted to be a mother all her life.!" He's so right, teg! I would love to hear him bragging not just to strange mexicans at a resturaunt, but to His sweet Saviour and a host of angels...saying :would ya just look at that! Isn't she just the best mom! Look at that little guy! Is he great or what?!!"
You are such a great mother to Tripp and I can't wait to meet the the next niece or nephew God gives me from you and DAvid. My prayer is that my girls turn out to be just like you. That's one of the biggest things i miss about your dad-getting to ask his wisdom on raising girls. He is loved deeply by us and we miss him terribly....Jeremiah has been a little bummed this week thinking about him. I am so thankful for the time we had with him and selfishly wish for one more day.....But, in the meantime, our hearts are a little more anxious to hear that trumpet sound so we can all go home! I am soooooo blessed to bear the name Sachs! What an amazing legacy we have been given. I love you sister!
Heather

brandyjones said...

Tegan-as a child growing up, i always looked at your family and prayed that i would grow up to be a parent like yours'. I loved your dad a lot, and as you already know, he is up above being the angel he's alway been. I know he would be so proud of you...the wonderful christian woman that he raised. And he would also be so proud of Tripp and the great mother that you are to him. I love you.

Abby Maddox said...

Oh Tegan, I'm so sorry I missed loving on you this day. This post touched my heart, and I loved getting to see a picture of your Dad on here.